Anxiety of it all.

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February 22, 2017 - Livingston, Montana

In 2009 I was having headaches so severe that one day I could not lift my head off the pillow without feeling severe pain in my head. I was able to call my mom and ask her if her migraines were that bad. She told me to go to the hospital and I did. It turned out that I had a meningioma about the size of an apple and had to have immediate surgery to remove the tumor. After the surgery, I was lost, scared and unsure of what happened. I had so many questions and little answers. I heard so many times from doctors that I had a fantastic outcome and I should not have any problems. But I did! I lost my job, I could not cope with what had happened. I had no memory, slept all day, over ate. Depressed, anxiety on top of anxiety and no help. I finally met with a neurologist that told me to "stop it". Stop what? She said that there is nothing wrong with me based on tests results. So of course I went for second and third opinions and got the same results. I could not find a doctor that would spend over 5 minutes with me. Then I stopped getting opinions. I moved on found another job and lost it and so on and so on. Now 2017 I finally have a good job, I struggle here and there but I am living my new normal. I found that I had to give myself time and slow down. I still work on me everyday and I am getting better.